Transfer student

I'm now officially in the 2ww portion of the cycle. I had my ET yesterday (Day 3), and they transferred 3 8-cell embryos, and are watching 3 others (1 8-cell, 2 6-cell) to see if they can be frozen. The transfer went smoothly enough, but today just feels, well, anticlimactic. I thought I'd be thrilled to have the shots and surgery portion of this behind me, and I am, but ...

Maybe in part it's because on Monday it looked like I was headed for a Day 5 transfer, but I got the call early on Day 3 saying we should do it that day. From what I can tell, it's not that my embryo quality took a nose-dive or that some stopped growing—I had 6 embryos that were considered to be growing "normally." I think my RE blinked; she was afraid, because of my age, to gut it out till Day 5. The embryologist told me that I was on the line—that I could have gone either Day 3 or Day 5. I've read so much about Day 3 vs. Day 5 transfer, from scholarly journal articles to forum posts, and to be honest, it still seems like a crapshoot as to which is best. So I went with my RE's advice. It would have been a stressful wait until Day 5, wondering how the embryos were doing. It was probably the right move, but Istill find myself thinking about it.

A sidenote: My RE can hardly get a sentence out without referencing my age. I know how old I am; I don't need her to tell me ALL THE TIME. By contrast, the RE in the same practice who was on call over the weekend and performed both my retrieval and the transfer just referenced how well I was doing, what good results I had—no mention of "good for my age." I can fill in the blanks on my own. I may say something to my RE, will try to keep it light, but really, stop talking about my age! It serves no purpose other than to make me feel bad. I sometimes wonder if it's to prepare me for if the cycle doesn't work. She's washing her hands of me before I even get there. Sorry, it's a gloomy day, feeling uncertain myself.