No bueno

My beta was negative. I was pretty sure that would be the case, but still not fun to hear.

My RE called with the news, and asked if I was ready to do another IVF cycle. I said that I would, but that first I'd like to try an FET cycle with the 2 embryos we were able to freeze from this cycle. Then things got really weird ...

First she said, no, you should "bank" those, that I might want to have a second child later and I should save them for that. I said we need to get me pregnant with a first child before that scenario makes any sense at all. Then she said that *at my age* the embryos don't always thaw that well. I said that I was surprised to hear that, because vitrification, a new method of freezing embryos, has an excellent thaw rate and makes FET success rates much better than they used to be. She said, "I see you've done some reading" but said in her medical opinion, I should do another fresh IVF cycle. I said I'd need a few days to think about my next move.

Can someone please tell me what that was about??

She completely contradicted herself. First my embryos are good enough to save for that mythical second child (having a unicorn for a pet seems about as likely right now), then they aren't high enough quality to survive a thaw? I don't want to think it's about money for the practice. I'm wondering if she thinks by saying I want to do FET next that I'll never try IVF again? Because I was a pretty nervous first-time IVFer, I'll freely admit. (And ideally, FET would work and I wouldn't have to do another IVF.) But I will try IVF again if the FET wouldn't work.

To me it makes sense to give my ovaries a break this cycle but still feel like I'm trying by doing the FET. If that is not successful, then I can move on to another IVF cycle. I don't see the down side to that. I may call her back today and try to get to the bottom of what she's really trying to say.

Anyway, I went from feeling sad but semi-zen about the negative results to being agitated and angry. Yippee.